...I had just completed my final interviews with the company I now work for. I had already quit my job and was moving to Seattle in exactly one week. I was relieved that the interview was over, but still unemployed and moving to a new city without knowing what was coming next.
I can't believe it's been a year since that day.
All of the feelings I was having around that time were so intense. Sad to be leaving my co-workers. Ecstatic to not have to care about online education anymore. Unsure about leaving my family and friends behind. Disappointed that I couldn't stay longer in my temporary home. Excited to meet new people in Seattle. Nervous to meet meet new people in Seattle (because I'm bad at making friends). Worried about not having a job. I felt the extremes of all of those feelings and I was physically tired from trying to get everything done and mentally tired from trying to make important decisions. And I was on my knees praying - a lot.
The last year has been pretty incredible. It's so interesting to look back and see how I was being led from there to here. I got offered a job while I was at a gas station in Idaho heading to my new home in Seattle. I got the job and got settled before there were no more jobs to be had. I've never had any real freak out moments of "Why did I move here again?" since I got here. I've made friends! The city is amazing. It really just all worked out.
It's looking back at experiences like this, experiences that are evidence that it all works out, that give me peace. Sometimes you just need to act, even if you don't know why. And it's a good reminder that I don't always need to know what's coming next. I'll just take it as it comes.
Wow...I don't know where that all came from. But there you have it.